Every day i try to improve
But i cant adjust this mood
This inescapable depression
Which controls my every move
Even when i avoid it
A single day distraught
Its just cuz im so angry and i will fuck you up
I can't see straight I can't end this pain
And I can't imagine living another day
With you by my side whispering in my ear
Nirvana is a place with only silence to hear
I'm a mess
Not because I lack control
But because my thoughts are taking their toll
My mind has a disease that I can't seem to cure
So my fear is all that I know for sure
If this is what my future holds
I'd rather break out of the social caste mold
I'd rather place this gun to my head
One last tear is all I would dread
Like a lock without a key I'm still stuck with regret
And I can't escape the voices in my head
I try to clear my mind but to no avail
Born to lose, yeah I'm always gonna fail